I am running away from reality, as fast as i could,
and trying not to look back, so as to prevent my eye from tearing.
Sunday, October 9, 2011
Last blogged @ 1:52 AM



Sunday ! ~ Nothing much !

Hahahahas. Sian luh , yeah decided to say goodbye.

to be continued ~


Saturday, October 8, 2011
Last blogged @ 8:45 AM



Ain't you tired of acting & lying ? Why wanna decieve yourself & decieve others ?

Does you feel happy afterwards ? Are you going to leave in those lies forever ?

Whats the reason for lying ? Why do you wanna choose lying?

I was tired of all this acting& lying , suddenly i just felt that i wanna let go of everything and be myself , but i really cant . I cant find where I am now . I cant understand myself , I cant understand what i want , Really ! When can i be myself ? Only when i let go everything but i cant . Saying i cant , i cant , i cant everytime makes me tired . No one understand , no one . None . Pathetic me right . I should be happy for whatever i have but i dont know . maybe i dont appreciate . But when people say that i dont know how to appreciate maybe its true .

Everyone is fake & me here hate to be a substitute.

.

Zoe


Friday, October 7, 2011
Last blogged @ 4:21 AM

Saturday ! Didntt go anywhere this weekend.

Jay Chou came for loud festival yesterday , didnt have the chance to go ya so wait for time than ! haha .

Darling is well ! Finally , hope he wont get ill again ! Loveyou<3

Should i keep holding on or remain like that ? To hold on is difficult so should i ? i dont know !


Help me to guard my mouth so that i wont speak careless or destructive words . I regret any time I have said words that may have hurt someone or made them feel bad. Help me to be careful with the words I speak so that they always bring life , love and encouragement to others. I know that the word I speakcan set the stage in my life for the good or the bad. Help me to speak words that build up and not tear down.


" Whoever guards his mouth and tongue keeps his soul from troubles. "







Monday, October 3, 2011
Last blogged @ 8:28 AM

My darling is sick , awww.

Bought darling to consult a doctor just now , waited for like 30 mintues than get to go in and see the doctor another 30 mintues for blood test result another 20mintues to get the medication 7 mintues for the attitude problem nurse to explain the medication and just 2 mintue to get the bill done . My darling spent $250 for 10 medication & blood test (with the doc telling me he is fine ) .

OMG ! Darling please dont fall sick because it is very expensive to bring you to see the doctor .

Hehe , Mr.TanKokKwang was like attitude problem lor today ! Scold Sandy cause of her lip stud than was like slacking in school for 30mintues to wait for Sandy . hais but whose fault is it ? I'm not siding anyone but ya .


Boy , it is difficult for me to overcome you as my fear . But i'll try . But at least for the time now i still do love you . February8's live somewhere inside my heart.


I pray that " You " would cause only good and excellent things to come from my lips. Fill my heart with " Your " love , peace , patience and kindness so that it overflows from my mouth. I know the words I speak can bring blessings into my life or they can keep blessings from me. Help me to never shut off the flow of all You have for me by speaking words that are not glorifying to " You " .


"Listen , for I will speak of excellence things, and from the opening of my lips will come right things. "

Proverbs 8:6


Sunday, October 2, 2011
Last blogged @ 4:07 AM



I hope , I hope , I hope .

Theres so much things i'm hoping for. But dream is always a dream , its never going to apply in real life . Why must there be up & down , happy & sad , rich & poor , smart & ignorant , in life .

...

went Cheryl & Andrew wedding yesterday afternoon , headed home after that .

Well , time do flies , its Sunday already unlike normal days , everything is the same .

Dajie bought me a striking pink shoes today , love . haha.

Nothing much . Downloading Audition now its damn long can ! Zzz. Sianx. Ya

The mood was like damn hot just now . Irritating !

But calm down after that . Find myself irritating seriously !

Thought of alot of things yesterday , happy ones , sad ones too .

Yeah . Wonder why , but one thing is my thinking is no longer the same anymore .

i began to learn from lesson after getting bytrayed , getting decieve , getting scolded , getting hurt . I do learn and this slowly lead me to hate making friends , i began to like / love being alone .

Didnt realise since when i was scared of talking to someone about how i feel , how i think . Everything I only keep inside my heart & thats a place nobody can see it . I dont know why but i am scared because a heart that is shattered will never be patch back anymore , instead it will be cut and scars left inside the heart.


I thank " You " that my faith increased every time i read " Your " word . I pray it will increase every time i speak " Your " word , or even i think of " Your " word . Help me to understand what i have read and apply it to my life. Help me to act on what it is instructing me to do . Help me to learn and memorize it. And every time i read it or quote it , increase my faith. Engrave " Your " word on my heart so that my faith is always increasing.


" Faith comes by hearing , and hearing by the word of god " .

Romans 10:17




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